Today, the present, metioned my past, and left my furture once again unknown. Today reminded me why. Why I have a tumblr. Why I blab on this for hours without knowing. Why I choose this to make my get my keyboard wet with salt water tearss. I forget so easily, and then my heart falls so much. Hey, I’m just saying.
Yesterday, it was my birthday. I didn’t have anything planned so I took the day how it fell. I went to practice, and everybody wished me a happy birthday but what really stood out to me was; what present did you get from your parents ?! And to answer that question I looked them right in the eye and told them that I didn’t need anything, therefore I got nothing. That was my birthday wish. When I got home, I thought about that statement and realized that I needed to do something I enjoyed. So I blasted the radio and I did what I do best. Sing and dance to the hardest of my ability until I couldn’t do it anymore. For three complete hours I made the best of what was given to me and took advantage of the situation.
After all, were luck to be where we are now…why try to fix something that’s not made to be broken ?:)
Today, I carelessly looked through all of my grandmas photo albums. As I was admring my aunts wedding pictures, I stopped. There you were, with me, together, and so much alive. I was only nine and you were only five, but the age at that point didn’t matter. After one month, I found you again and cant possibly forget everything that happened. Why do I see you everywhere I go, and do? I know you look down at my and the other couple thousand people that adore you. But everything came back; the questions, the tears, the long nights, the flashbacks. And to think that I let it go for just a small amount of time. I feel that I should completely spill out my guts like i did when I was just a newbie to tumblr, when you first left. But„ by now people should understand what I’m dealing with and UNDERSTAND that I don’t want to talk about it. I say I’m okay but way down there, I find you. I will never forget you.
Wow, does time fly by. I still remember the middle of March when it was the middle of the cold and the warm. I wished everyday for summer to come closer, to have a beach day as soon as I can. Well, today is August 10,2010. Just another practice day, exactly 9 days until my birthday, but most importantly, the last days free days until even more essays and reports come along.
Here my thoughts about today;
They give me enough work to forget that we’re in the middle of summer vacation.
The work is unbelievably POINTLESS. (half the students dont do itt ! )
I am physically and mentally drained from todays 5hour practice, yet I’m up and complaining.
How am I going to manage everything in September ?
I could see me crying me crying through the school years
Not to metion all of the family conflicts.
Summer 2010, you have disappointed me a great deal.